I hope my story has brought answers and guidance for your journey in life. The next columns will offer slogans to provide assistance along your path of empowerment. Several phrases have helped me to right my course throughout my expedition. The first one is “Let go and let God”.
“Let go and let God” is a saying that is popular today in many spiritual groups. It is a watchword to remind us that we are not in control of people or situations in our lives. Learning that I was not supposed to play God was new to me. I did not even know my actions were controlling to my family or others. My motivation was that if everyone is happy, then I could be happy and relax. I just wanted everything to come together, well.
When I heard “Let go and let God”, it was almost earth shaking. How could everything happen right, if I was not the coordinator? As a teacher, I managed my classroom very well. It was organized and the day went like clockwork. Additionally, parents came in to help the students with their studies on a regular basis throughout each day. When I was the music teacher, I had taught the students every song, dance step, and instruments needed for each performance. I had produced many school programs and events and everyone was a big success. I knew how to get in there and make the pieces come together.
In addition, at home, I had to be organized and have the projects completed on time to keep my husband happy. It was necessary to have dinner ready at the same time every night or he would be angry. If we went camping, I was not to forget anything, or I would hear about it loudly.
Major lessons came in trying to keep a marriage together that was not meant to last. It fell apart even with all my efforts to plug the holes of the sinking ship. More efforts seemed to make things worse. No matter how hard I tried, the marriage was not working. I was frantic trying to keep the boat afloat.
Eventually, my husband and I needed to seek a separation. One afternoon, after a session with my psychiatrist, I realized that I did not have a workable marriage and my efforts were not bearing fruit. Letting go of my 30-year marriage was traumatic. I would be abandoned. Now I understood that I had not grown up emotionally because of childhood trauma.
Our parting opened the door for me to have an opportunity to heal my life. I found opportunities to improve my self-esteem, attitudes, and unhealthy ways. While painting a portrait of an angel one night, I felt a new feeling. I had let go of the people in my life that I had hung on to for emotional support. The new feeling was the love in the universe finally being available to me. The people had stopped that love like barriers. I was now able to have a connection to the love of my higher power without the obstructions from my neediness. I never felt abandoned again. I was learning to allow love into my life.
I spent the next ten years learning to love myself and let God be my director and guidance. I gained in self-love and self-confidence. I was learning to let love come into my life and heal the wounded parts of me to become a whole person.
I began the footwork to become the person I wanted for a companion. By now, I understood the law of attraction. My list for a new individual in my life was spiritual, honest, sincere, loyal, and trustworthy. In due course, little by little I changed to incorporate these qualities. I decided to join a spiritual study group called “Search for God” to help me grow more.
Immediately, when I was introduced to a man at the study group, I knew that I would have a relationship with him. I attracted a man with the qualities I had listed, I realized during one of the meetings at my book study. I did not go looking for a companion. When I was ready for a new relationship, “he” appeared. He was the answer to my prayers.
I found the consequences were better than I planned. I had let God provide the person right for me. The universe brought him to me when I was ready for moving on with a partner in a healthy way. Sixteen years of unconditional love has been a real gift from heaven. Now with my spiritual growth, I understand that when the universe puts the final pieces together, there are wonderful results.
The real lesson came from learning faith and trust in a beneficent universe that wants the best for me. When I am allowing my faith to work, it connects with that force that knows what I need better than I do. I trust that the outcome is the right one for me.
Letting go does not mean giving up and it does not mean escaping into inert passivity. It means giving my struggle over to God and getting on with my life. I found that in letting go of my effort, I leave space for good things to manifest into my experience about which I might not have even known.
“Letting go and letting God” has become a great tool for me. Life has become more effortless, graceful, and pleasant. The more I let the universe determine the outcome, the better life goes. Maturity is a new consciousness for me. In fact, I know today that everything works for good for those that are on the spiritual path. I do not have to worry about the finale.
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