A diagnosis does not have to be a lifelong sentence. Thirty-three years back I gave up drinking alcohol and was given medications from a psychiatrist to help my unbalanced life. I had gone for help to leave my domestic violence, abandonment, and shamed life as I was living in survival and victimization.
After eighteen years on prescriptions that addicted me, my new doctor put me on Depakote. I found it was addicting, too, even though I was told it was not. However, the side effects became worse than the disorder and my friend saw them as disturbing. It was as if I now had Bell’s Palsy or Parkinson’s, too. It was time to stop the pills. This was the worst withdrawal I have ever experienced.
Each day a loving God was like the carrot before the mule. Detoxing took three months. Because I was disoriented, I could not drive, fill out a form, or balance my checkbook. I found that Bipolar Disorder is a way to run away from reality just like drinking. Moreover, medications also drugged me and kept me stuck in my insanity.
It was time to give up my old mind-set from my family that lived in a fear-based life of alcoholism and mental illness. My yielding to a caring Higher Power was my answer. I found that wellness is my spiritual inheritance. Love would heal my life.
I humbly asked God to remove my Bipolar Disorder and thanked him for replacing it with His love and grace. In addition, I took many supportive actions to raise my vibrations into a higher consciousness beyond the fears and harms of the past.
An excellent support came from Flower Essences that are pure energy and became essential to moving out the old energy. They push out stuck, dark, emotional energy leaving space for loving energy to replace the old trauma, crisis, fear, and other negativity. Over time, I grew into grace, which restored the natural chemical balance in my body. I was not deficient of drugs; I was lacking love as the basis for a balanced life in reality. Accepting a loving basis for my life restored my true chemistry.
With my new way of life, I replaced my old thoughts and behavior to positive responses and faced life’s issues. I had been looking for love in all the wrong places, my husband, job, children, even church. I moved my actions and thinking to respond as if I were in the presence of love.
The chemical balance in my body was restored after I was off all prescriptions and turned a new leaf by focusing on the next right thing in front of me. This replaced my reacting from the past while in survival. As a substitute for my fear based emotions that I released, instead, I chose to focus on gratitude for a benevolent energy of the universe that is within all our hearts. Now, I project a positive attitude and feel cheerful emotions.
I was a changed person. Living in the presence of love brings peace, happiness, and sanity, which I had not felt before; it felt good. Asking God daily to guide my thoughts, words and actions, changes my motivation into sending out loving emotions, rather than my fear-based thoughts of the past.
Another practical suggestion is to drink lots of pure water; this will flush out your system. If you carry a bottle of water, write on paper Love and Acceptance facing inward for the water to connect with the vibrations of the words. Over time as you drink this water, you will feel more spiritual. Your body is mostly water. In his book, “The Hidden Messages in Water”, Dr. Emoto showed in his work with water crystals that we can change water by using positive words on our water. My drinking water then has a new taste and is supportive to a healthy person. Later, I changed the words on my drinking water to God and moved into more sanity.
For me, Bipolar Disorder was a lesson to learn to love and forgive others and myself. I could face reality and address life in loving solutions, instead of running from reality. I am daily thankful for a new healthy life where I love myself and help others. Bipolar Disorder became my gift to learn that there is no life sentence, only the opportunity to grow beyond the past into a new life in the present. My new life includes being totally honest with myself which is an everyday choice to live in reality.
Edgar Cayce, the Father of Holistic Health said, “There are in truth no incurable conditions”. This became my inspiration to move into being mentally free of the diagnosis. My psychiatrist declared me sane several years ago. With a daily focus of the consciousness of the presence of love in my life, I retain my sanity.
“Paradigm Busters, Revealing the Real You” is my book with the principals and steps I took into sanity. It helps people overcome their maladies of health, addictions, mental and relationship issues. As an Internationally Board Certified Regressionist, I assist people to find the root cause of any illness or difficulty so it can be replaced with a loving solution. Growing beyond my verdict brought the gift of maturity. Today, I am happy, joyous, and free of the ego’s messages from the past.
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