It is important for me to become rigorously truthful with myself. Most people are not into self-reflection. However, this is what brought sanity into my life. When I grew up, children were to be seen and not heard. Therefore, to speak up was not acceptable. Learning to talk about myself was a challenge.
As an adult, I knew what my children needed, I knew how to help my husband, and I could talk about my job. I had no idea how to talk about myself. I panicked thinking what will I say. Since my stepfather told me, the family was not interested in what I had to say. I would be breaking the rules if I spoke. Years later, I fortunately did find counseling, a mentor, and support groups where I could finally be open. The best advice I received was to talk, trust, and have feelings. Finally, I could trust sharing about my past difficulties.
I found a friend on this path of self-searching and counseling group that offer the gift of honestly talking over and sorting out my life. A true relationship offers the ability not to hold back and openly share my secrets. They understand, as they want a better life, too. Writing out my story and sharing it with a safe person, surprised me to see where I had been wrong.
From my past childhood of being slapped in the face if I spoke up. Amazingly, I heard an inner message to ask God to speak through me and let him do the talking. This was the beginning of learning how to shift my conversations or lack of them. When it is my turn to talk in a group, teach, or bring in people from the other side I ask God to bring the message and I am the messenger.
This has worked well for me for many years, now. Over time, I found myself talking from my heart and not my head. I found the change gradual that I can speak out and say something meaningful and not just words, to keep the conversation going. This became the basis of my writing also. I am the scribe today for the messages I write and voice for the counseling I do. I am being myself as an agent of a loving communication.
This means, I do not have to look good to others, have all the answers, or say all the right things to impress you. It allows my inner self to talk for me, which works. Each time I had a radio program, instead of being nervous about what would I say, I prayed. I opened my mouth and the information about the topic of the day, comes forth. My first programs can be found on my web site and my newest radio programs are available on You Tube.
This also has helped me in speaking to audiences. Preparing for a workshop, I was in anxiety. My inner message was if those in the audience had your information, they would be in front of the group. I prayed and my anxiety left. I was to open my mouth and allow them to hear the communication.
Being on the spiritual path now for 35 years, has brought me knowledge that is not always is in books. Meditation is where I receive most of my spiritual understanding. I can receive inner messages as well as saying them; I find myself saying things, wondering from where did that come.
I do not have all the answers to my counseling when helping others. One day. I came to a wall about how to proceed in assisting the client. I asked my angel, “”What do I do now?” The response was so perfect and logical, I proceeded and all came together better than I could have put together.
Paying attention to what is around me gives me clues for my life. I first heard about forgiveness from a guest on one of my radio shows. It puzzled me. I have been curious all my life and wanted to understand about that idea. While on the ocean beach in the state of Oregon, I was reading a spiritually channeled book. It was a glorious day with just the right amount of ocean breeze. As I was enjoying the book, I read, “Forgiveness is when you give up the past, FOR a “New” day. This made sense to me in a way that I understood. It was simple and clear. Years later, I went back to refer to that book again. The message was not in the book.
Learning that praying for others goes along with forgiveness, is important. The person who upsets me is giving me a clue as to what I need to change in me. They are my teachers. It was startling to realize I was part of the discussion and had to be responsible for my part in it. If I think of them like a mirror, I see myself in what the issue is. I learned to accept the spiritual axiom, that every time I am disturbed no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with me.
This leads me into praying for them to be free from the disagreement, resentment, or issues. I now pray for the person or thing that upset me to be free of it. I pray for everything I want for myself to give to them. I ask for their health, prosperity, well being, and happiness. Even if I do not want to do this, I do it every day for two weeks. After this time, I find that I am no longer bitter, resentful, or have hatred. Compassion, understanding, and love have replaced my being angry. My feelings turn into empathy and understanding, as they are wounded people.
In addition, during praying, I thank that person for playing that part for me so I could change my energy from the fearful past into a caring person. This last part has freed me from years of abuse from my stepfather. I prayed for several years and over time, I did mellow and understand that I wrote the script and he played out that part because this was important for me to experience and move beyond from my past lives.
The people that upset me the most are my challenges for me to change my energy and move forward in this life into being a channel of love to others. I had to have those experiences, so I no longer react from fear in those situations, and now can respond in love to face all of life’s challenges. I have risen above my childish fearful reactions into being mature. I have found wisdom beyond my usual capability. This has increased my peace of mind that can stand firm in the face of difficult circumstances.
Marilyn Redmond is an ordained spiritual minister for counseling, readings, regression, and healing. Marilyn can help you find health, happiness, and prosperity. She is an internationally board-certified regressionist for past life therapy and on the American Board of Hypnotherapy. In addition, she is a teacher, speaker, and medium. Marilyn gives readings and healing information from the other side for illness, relationships, and issues in your life.
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